Tuesday, Jun. 14, 2005 - 11:58 p.m.
I have been so tired lately. I mean dragging. I know I may be doing to much. Right now though I am not realy working on anything so I can't understand this tiredness. Like today at work. My boss, a field inspector and I went to an elementary to speak to the kids about bugs. My day job, I work for a pest control company and I am in Sales. We were asked to come do a presentation to some 4th graders and I was the speaker. Cause I know about bugs, yippee! So I did a steallar job and my boss was thoughouly impress and yatta yatta. So it has been decided thatI shall do ALL presentations. Lucky me. Actaull it is a good thing cause I eat that stuff up. Then when we got back to the office I was hit by a wave of exhaustion. I walked in to my boss's office and tell him I'm going home cause I don't feel well. He gave me a crazy look cause I was fine 30 mins earlier. And I left. I came home around 1pm, ate lunch then crashed out till 4:30pm. Went to pick up the kids and came home. I also have been having a headache for like 3 days. I could be anemic. It wouldn't surprise me. My eating habits are so sporatic and my choice of sustenance is questionable. I dont excersie and I burn both ends of the candle. Oh that Jamacian Vacation can't get here soon enough. Yesterday was a roller coaster of a day for my emotions and I think maybe that has something to do with it.
I was in a weird funk on Sunday too. I had gotten rid of both my kids and was supposed to do laundry. BAD! But what did I do I took of to my new Boytoy's house where I was pampered. He made me lunch, played some music and we laid there talking for a long time. He shared with me stories of himself and I told him a tale or 2. It was really really relaxing. Of course after we ate and talked well the was only one thing left to do. : ) and I will leave it at that. It's good but he doesn't kiss me. He has this "trust" thing and kissing is too intimate. UH as opposed to your penis inside of me, albiet with a condom but still. God some guys are really weird! But I can understand where he is coming from. He can't go round kissing all the women that he comes across. I KNOW he has been around. But that is one thing I do miss from Mr 27, that heavenly, send me in a tailspin kiss. He has been calling me and we talk about everything and he has finally let me in his world. Last night when I was teasing him about something, It is too complicated to explain but he said to me " My loyalties lie with you" And the tone in his voice threw me off guard. It was sincerity. Later in the conversation he aske dwhen he was going to see me cause he needed some "alone time" with me. Hmmmmmm "alone time" huh? I know that I am probably going to regret it later but I just may have 2 lovers. 2 lover and aint ashamed! It is something that I dont really like to do but how can I give up either one? I am way too greedy! HAHAHHHAHAHHA So what!
Then me and my roomate had this HIV discussion last night and now I am so freaked out! Damn it, COCK BLOCKER!!!!
And now I am really tired and I am starting to get all weirded out. Damn damn damn! Happy Thought think only happy thoughts! Damn all I still think about it S E X. Damn I I will say it once again DAMN!
